The main question in my vocabulary: Why?!
Why in the hell nothing of this makes ay sense at all?
Why does she care more about trivial things like the fucking dress to her world known fake wedding than her baby's life?
Why, and that's the worst part, does she think she is fucking right?!
How is that reasonable?
How is that good parenting?
How is that relaxed and responsible?
How is that human? Oh, my sorry, that is actually the thing that distinguishes human from other animals: we don't care about important things, only about things that shouldn't even exist!
But why did she choose the worst way of being human?
I can't go down that road again, I have so much to talk about this, so many theories already made...
The point is: how can I be strong enough if she won't allow me to do the right things, to take it easy, as much as it needs to?
I can't allow that to happen.
I can't allow her to take another thing from me just to satisfy her vanity and pride.
I can't allow her to be unfair once again and join her worshiped imaginary character who should, as well as her, be condemned for War Crimes.
I can't and I won't.
Please, someone help me go through this. I can't do it alone, neither does she².
And fuck what she may say, think or do.
